What are you afraid of?
I guess I should just pray another prayer of gratitude. My fears of being hacked and compromised are tempered by my confidence in the words of my dear friend Maresi Silberbauer, may she rest in eternal heavenly peace, who wisely asked, “Who has time to weed through all your boring details when they are dealing with their own survival issues?” Yet the UN Cyber Security experts quoted numbers in the hundreds of thousands of daily attempted hacks, which leads me to err on the side of caution and not want to attract too much attention.
Yet my greatest passion is to share the vision which was shared with me many years ago about a world of peace. And perhaps if I attract the “wrong” actors, the positive, loving energies will overcome them and they will have a conversion experience, simply by first ridiculing my naïve simplicity, before finally succumbing to its boundless source of divine love.
What am I afraid of?
That someone at work will see through me and deny my emotional intelligence and suddenly recognize me for the old lady that should have retired last year and no longer has anything to offer in this international organization? That my six month separation really was at a critical time when I should have been applying my analytical expertise to smooth over the implementation of the next level? That it’s too late now and I am too old to do anything anymore? What a load of crap! Talk about imposter syndrome! Thank you Clare Josa.
I am confident that it is NEVER too late. I know that I can and do make a difference. I know that I did not want anyone at work to know how old I was. But now it’s different. This is my 63 birthday. Most of my colleagues have had to retire at 62 years old. I used to complain that I did not have a decent contract. Now it means I am back again under new terms. Now it means that my retirement age is 65 and all you guys who I was somewhat envious of for having fixed term contracts, still have to retire if you reach 62 before 2018. Of course next year will be different. Then the new regulations will also apply to all you guys who got “better” contracts before me. And of course, some people really do want to retire early. But when I think of my sister-in-law who proudly announced her early retirement, and then in response to my question, what will she do, said: “Clean, cook and other household chores,” I knew we came from two different worlds.
I am just so grateful to have this opportunity to continue to contribute to the workforce. But even more, I want to contribute to True Parents United Nations. What we really need is a parental heart in government. We need parental understanding in leadership. We need to learn to overcome corruption and harassment and so many other issues by applying universal principles of unconditional love, based on three stages of growth, a four position foundation and universal principles.
Yes, please wish me a happy birthday. Congratulate me on my new contract. Wish me well in my implementation efforts. And join me in building a place where we respect each other and care for each other like family. Where you can’t abuse another person because they feel like your own mother or father or sister or brother or son or daughter. Well yes, maybe it is my age that allows me to relate to all these categories. But actually, it is just an attitude. Let us embrace an attitude of caring for others in the conviction that when we take care of the whole, we will indeed be included.